karmacommander

Leadership retreat was interesting. It was really hard to be away from Steve, and it became even more so when I heard from him later on in the night and he was so wasted that he didn't know where he was. Much worriedness and crying and I couldn't enjoy my bonding time as much. It was still good though. I made the most of the situation and have made good connections. As far as applying what we've learned, we'll have to see in our success for the rest of the year. We have ROPES training set for everyone on the 7th of November. Should be fun. Hoping to be more organized.. Looking to drop a class as to have only 4 this semester. I shouldn't have taken more than I have because my happiness is suffering. I know I definitely am lacking in the friends and fun department. Steve's my best friend these days and it's all wonderful for our relationship, but it's come to the point that I realize I need to work on my friendship. Time does not permit me fun. I miss the days when I felt free, instead of on a tight schedule. I don't mind routine at all, but I would like to breathe once in a while lol. A lot of things going under the "One Day" list. We have been getting into the home improvement shows and it is satisfying to want many of the same things. I just need more patience as far as getting what I want. He's patient with me. I can be understanding to him, but then again, I can be the least understanding person because of that lack of patience thing hah. All in good time. We've been going out more on dates, and I really appreciate that from him. It's pretty fun. This weekend we went to Longhorn and saw Nights at Rodanthe. I have relieved him from watching chick flicks for the rest of the year because of that. We missed the Farmer's Market because I was out of town, but it's all good, we can do it this Saturday. We love fresh fruits and veggies. I adore it when he gets me my peaches. I just feel bad I forget to eat them. When I have school I simply don't eat and it's so bad for my metabolism. One meal a day and ridiculous snacks is not entirely healthy. I need stress relieving activities. Mobsters is a pathetic excuse for stress relief.

I'm feeling happy these days far more than I've been in a while. I think I'm getting better at juggling things, and learning how to make myself enjoy life despite the stress. Working on getting to good but it will take constant effort. Learning to say no to things that will consume more of my time. That's progress right? So time to re-evaluate and figure out what will keep me happy. I'd like to have a mini-garden. I'd like some pretty art to see on a daily basis. If I can get my art supplies here and draw and paint again, I I can let out some stress that way. SGA is becoming my fun time, getting the clubs to work together and give the students more enjoyable events to partake in. I'd like to invest more of myself to BCA (Brevard Cultural Alliance) so that I can some culture back in my life!! The bar scene is not working for me. It tends to turn me into a monster when I'm all strung out from everything and I get so mad for no reason. I told we need to cut out the partying. This weekend will a test I'm sure. Fridays are my free day to catch up with chores, excercise and whatnot. I have a bad habit of spending it on the computer though that it goes by quick lol Haircut today. I'd like to have some friends time in, but that's another problem. I think it's time to make new ones, because the ones I have are far away!! I shall miss Lindsay and our crazy times. Much luck to her in Abu Dhabi!! ;) The officers are starting to be my substitute friends which I don't mind at all, they're all wonderful in their own ways and might as well get along with them. :P I think a nice hot shower sounds good right now. Ohh and chocolate :D

Woke up from a call. Myke was calling back because I wished him a happy birthday. All my good friends are far away and it's hard to maintain new ones when there's so much I've taken on. Bitch bitch whine whine.Steve's great though and I'd like to think that when I'm not taking out my stress on him, that we're pretty happy with our little life. He let my cat move in a while back, and a while back, he brought me home crabs. Like crabs you eat, but they're our pets now. Except he keeps on threatening to eat them. They live in the other bath tub for now until we know what to do with them.I should be doing my homework but instead I'm playing Mobster and playing around on LJ.SGA's doing alright. I have my spiffy badge that will let me get to the SGA room without too much hassle. Mmm power.I have a gala to publicize and random other things I need to work on. The list keeps on getting longer, and schoolwork is piling up.Waiting on refund and I shall spend part of it for retail therapy. Grin.There's a conference in Bradenton coming up, and I'm tempted to go but doing so would mean I will join Voices for Justice. My papa is trying to get me involved with immigration. Sometimes I think he's trying to coerce me to take on his path, and I feel conflicted about it. Except for flyer making stuff, I don't even bother with art anymore, and it makes me sad. He was at the office of Senator Bill Nelson today to try and get his paperwork sorted out. That whole situation is upsetting as well, but it will all work itself out. I personally think he needs to relax and retire back in the Philippines, but I'd be scared for his safety back there. There is so much trouble in getting us here, but really some days all I want to do is go back. Oh well, I haven't made my mark yet. Think about retirement once I actually get some things squared away hah.Is it the weekend yet?